Are we going to swim? Are we used to saying, “Wow, what a beautiful body,” and then looking in the mirror, saying, “So pretty!” But you know what happened? When I looked in the mirror, I suddenly saw myself as a man. Then, in an instant, I saw my entire life—where I went wrong, the wrong choices I made, the reasons why I became what I was, why I had same-sex attraction. In an instant. I can’t explain it.

After being silent on social media for a long time, Maria Sopia Love—a well-known transgender influencer famous for her viral walking videos in different places including abroad—has once again become a hot topic. Many were shocked by her latest video where her appearance had clearly changed.

According to her, she just woke up one morning and realized her true identity. She said:
“Hi again. Thank you to everyone who remembered me. I can’t mention each of you. I just mustered the courage to come back because I simply wanted to share what God has done in my life. To those who will listen—thank you. And to those who won’t, that’s okay too.

It turns out, you can change and be healed. The life of a transgender person—there’s another path. It’s not all about parties, seduction, beautification, outshining others, faking things, or relying on foreign lovers. There is a better offer—God offers a beautiful life to those who want to walk with Him. I’m still gathering courage, and one of these days, I hope we can spend time together.”

Her message to everyone:
“How are you all? Even though I can’t see your comments, I’m happy to see you, and I really missed you. I hope you missed me too. I really just had to gather the strength to come back and share the goodness that God has done in my life. It would be so unfair if I didn’t share it.

As for my life… I don’t even know where to start. I don’t know how to begin, but I’ll try. You know, I didn’t realize that when I hit rock bottom, it was actually the moment that broke down the walls I had built. I realized I grew up lacking love—deeply lacking. So I looked for it in men. Approval. Compliments like ‘Wow, you’re so beautiful.’ I searched for that love in plastic surgery, in material things. But all those things fade, break, and rot. That’s why my story ended in sorrow.

And then, one day, while I was looking in the mirror, I suddenly saw myself as a man. And in that moment, I saw my whole life—where I went wrong, my mistakes, why I had same-sex attraction. I can’t explain what happened, but it was mysterious. I know it was only God who could have done that. I was suddenly enlightened about who I am, what I am, where I’m going, and why I was created. I was in shock. But the next day, everything started to feel lighter. I felt deep regret in my heart, and that’s when my life began to change—when I turned my back on the world.

Now, I realize that what I was truly searching for was only God. God is real. He’s the only one I was looking for. And when He filled my life, I didn’t want anything else but Him. Material things no longer hold value. I don’t need approval anymore. I don’t need anything else. Those are just bonuses now. My heart became quiet. It’s like I’m even excited about death because I want to be sealed with Him—I don’t want to lose Him anymore. I don’t know how to share this properly because it really needs to be experienced.

You need to truly experience it—being full of love, full of joy that you know didn’t come from yourself. It doesn’t fade. It doesn’t break. I don’t know… It’s weird—what you see with your eyes isn’t real, but what you can’t see is what’s real.

As for me—I know I’ll never be a straight man. I accept that. But I’ve experienced same-sex attraction, and it turns out you can overcome that through the power of God. Being gay… I don’t even want to use the word ‘gay’ because it feels degrading. We are made in the image and likeness of God. We are like Him, aren’t we? And our weaknesses can be used to draw us closer to Him—God willing, to one day return to heaven.

But those same weaknesses can also be used for evil, to slowly draw you away from Him, day by day. I experienced both sides. So that’s it. I just wanted to testify to you and share God’s goodness and mercy. Even I was shocked that He’s actually real.

To the young people, the younger siblings in our community—when I first transitioned, no one told me that there was another path: a straight, decent, joyful, peaceful one. So please think carefully about undergoing a sex change. In my experience, it only felt good for about 10 to 15 years. But once the intoxication of that happiness wears off, and you get tired of it… well, that’s it.

So I just want to be simple. In short, I was happy. I can’t see your comments now. I don’t even know how to properly use this video. But I hope you also find the true joy that is invisible—eternal—and that I can’t even explain.

You have to taste and see the goodness of God. That’s all. I hope you are always well. Whatever decisions you make in life, I hope my story helps, and I also hope you don’t imitate what I did before. Even though I learned something from it and it brought good in some way, I still wouldn’t want others to go through what I went through.